We Are Going To Be Parents
Friday, November 14, 2008
No More Please
I just got out of the hospital, I have lost the baby. 3rd miscarriage in a row and I guess that God doesn't think that I am worthy of the blessing of a child. Right now I am not feeling like putting myself through this over and over, so I don't know if I am really going to continue trying anymore. Nobody I know has ever been through this so I really have nobody to talk to about it. Aaron has been great and taking it harder than me I think. I am depressed but used to it by now I guess. All I know is...I can't see myself going to the temple anytime soon now. I am just done with it all. I just wish that I knew what makes me such a horrible person that I am more unworthy than the women who kill their babies. I must really be worthless in Gods eyes. I am just venting I know...but I can't help but feel that way right now.
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Sara, you broke my heart when I read this!! You are a gorgeous daughter of God, and Heavenly Father loves you so much. We all go through different trials.( I think you know what I went through.) Just want you to know how much we all love you and I wish I could do something to ease your pain. Let me know if you need anything! Love you cuz, Chelsea
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