Well, Halloween is almost here. I can't believe that this year is finally coming to an end. I swear that this year has been the longest of my life. I know that is just seems that way due to the lack of my husband, but still. Aaron was relocated to a place where I get to hear from him only every couple of days. It is so hard to keep my mind and body from wanting to shut down sometimes. There are days that I just want to fall into a coma only to be awaken by Aaron. But reality is that I am just going to have to deal with the rest of this deployment the way that I have made it so far.
Aaron is affected too by this. He wants to be home so badly. It has hit him to the point he is trying to get sent to School House so that he will be stationary and that we may have a life and family. I was rather shocked by this fact, but he is already in the process. It would be nice to have him home long enough to have at least one baby, and for him to be home for the entire event.
I can't believe that we have been married for almost a whole year. Though this year has been long and miserable, it's hard to think that I have been married for that long. I know that this may sound weird, but it is true. I look forward to a whole lifetime as Aaron's' wife (preferably in person). I love him so much and couldn't be happier (except for if he was home of course).
Well, that is my blog for now. At least I finally blogged one :). I better get back to decorating for the Halloween party we are having tomorrow.
We Are Going To Be Parents
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Sunday, September 23, 2007
EXHAUSTING!!!
Well, this week has been full of challenges and exhausting trials. I have worked out almost everyday this week. Walking, the eliptical crosstrainer and ab work-outs...sometimes I wanted to quit cause I was so tired...but I kept pushing myself. Thursday and Friday was spent at the hospital getting blood work and exams done, and I have more to do this week. Finding out that my liver was getting weak and my white blood cell count was low, and now have to go see a surgeon to see what else is wrong and what can be done. All I could say is...do whatever it takes, I just want to be healthy and be able to have a baby with my husband. The only thing they could do to carry me over til my other appointments is give me some medications, vitamins, and tell me to eat more...lol. So...I sort of have increased my food intake (just not by much seeing as I am still dieting) and I drink even more water.
I still have the photography class with Andrea every Wednesday, which we love. And at least for the next week I will get to talk to Aaron regularly...but he moves next weekend to a place where I won't be able to hear from him as often. Which just means I am going back to work and back to the tanning bed...since I won't have to be at home like I have been. Aaron has been back in Iraq for over a month now, and I am working on his 3rd package. He loves scuba diving and said that if he was to go to college he would want to go in for marine biology...so I bought him a marine book with lots of awesome pictures. It was the most expensive book I have ever bought that wasn't for college. But I think that he will love it. If anyone else wants to write him or anything his address is:
SSG Golson, Aaron S.
18th ORD Co. (EOD)
FOB SYKES
APO AE 09351
Well, I want to finish scrubbing the house. If I am going back to work here soon, I want to know that the house is in incredible condition so I just have to work hard on the weekends and just tidy up during the week. I hope that everyone is haveing a great week.
Love Ya'
I still have the photography class with Andrea every Wednesday, which we love. And at least for the next week I will get to talk to Aaron regularly...but he moves next weekend to a place where I won't be able to hear from him as often. Which just means I am going back to work and back to the tanning bed...since I won't have to be at home like I have been. Aaron has been back in Iraq for over a month now, and I am working on his 3rd package. He loves scuba diving and said that if he was to go to college he would want to go in for marine biology...so I bought him a marine book with lots of awesome pictures. It was the most expensive book I have ever bought that wasn't for college. But I think that he will love it. If anyone else wants to write him or anything his address is:
SSG Golson, Aaron S.
18th ORD Co. (EOD)
FOB SYKES
APO AE 09351
Well, I want to finish scrubbing the house. If I am going back to work here soon, I want to know that the house is in incredible condition so I just have to work hard on the weekends and just tidy up during the week. I hope that everyone is haveing a great week.
Love Ya'
Friday, September 14, 2007
The Weekly Update
154 days til Aaron should be coming home. 5 months and 2 days. It seems like forever, but I keep telling myself that it's not. We have made it through 10 months, what is another 5...right?
Aaron tried to call and instant message me regularly. I am so blessed to have that, there are some who rarely get to hear from their soldiers. I know that I won't always have this luxury, but while I do I am going to savor every second.
I love being able to hear his voice. We talk about everything. Sometime we have those awkward silences where we don't know what to say, but they don't last long. We talk about how we are coming along in our work-outs. Now we have discussed and decided to try to have a baby when he comes home (which we were debating for a while...seeing as we couldn't decide on whether we wanted to wait til we had time alone...or just go for it). I love the way we make plans, not knowing of course whether or not he will even be home to go through with them. Talking about going to the beach for my annual beach family reunion. Drawing up and discussing floor plans for our dream home. I love how we are so open and can talk about anything and everything.
Yesterday I gave him the 5 Languages of Love Quiz. Just to have something fun to talk about. Turns out we both have the same primary and secondary love languages. Which I decided just further proved that we are soul mates.
Something else that I have to pass my time by...photo class. Andrea and I enrolled into a photography fundamentals class. Now we will be able to take great pro-like pics for our scrapbooking. Too bad it is only one night a week.
So, to keep me from going further insane during Aaron's' absence, I have; photo class, scrapbooking, soon subbing again, working-out and anything else that Andrea throws my way...lol. She is already talking about another photo class and we want to take the painting dishes for Christmas class and there are the classes thrown by the scrapbooking stores around here. So with all of this...plus my insane house cleaning kick I have been one...I should be good.
And, on Monday or Tuesday, I should be getting another call from the FRSA to talk about me doing some volunteer work on base and/or in my FRG.
lol...Aaron said yesterday that I have grown a lot since he has left. That may or may not be true, but I sure feel more mature. Just because I have never really had to take care of myself before, and now I have to. I like paying the bills, I like knowing that the house looks good, and I like knowing that my husband is proud of the job that I do.
Well, I guess that is enough blabbing for today.
Aaron tried to call and instant message me regularly. I am so blessed to have that, there are some who rarely get to hear from their soldiers. I know that I won't always have this luxury, but while I do I am going to savor every second.
I love being able to hear his voice. We talk about everything. Sometime we have those awkward silences where we don't know what to say, but they don't last long. We talk about how we are coming along in our work-outs. Now we have discussed and decided to try to have a baby when he comes home (which we were debating for a while...seeing as we couldn't decide on whether we wanted to wait til we had time alone...or just go for it). I love the way we make plans, not knowing of course whether or not he will even be home to go through with them. Talking about going to the beach for my annual beach family reunion. Drawing up and discussing floor plans for our dream home. I love how we are so open and can talk about anything and everything.
Yesterday I gave him the 5 Languages of Love Quiz. Just to have something fun to talk about. Turns out we both have the same primary and secondary love languages. Which I decided just further proved that we are soul mates.
Something else that I have to pass my time by...photo class. Andrea and I enrolled into a photography fundamentals class. Now we will be able to take great pro-like pics for our scrapbooking. Too bad it is only one night a week.
So, to keep me from going further insane during Aaron's' absence, I have; photo class, scrapbooking, soon subbing again, working-out and anything else that Andrea throws my way...lol. She is already talking about another photo class and we want to take the painting dishes for Christmas class and there are the classes thrown by the scrapbooking stores around here. So with all of this...plus my insane house cleaning kick I have been one...I should be good.
And, on Monday or Tuesday, I should be getting another call from the FRSA to talk about me doing some volunteer work on base and/or in my FRG.
lol...Aaron said yesterday that I have grown a lot since he has left. That may or may not be true, but I sure feel more mature. Just because I have never really had to take care of myself before, and now I have to. I like paying the bills, I like knowing that the house looks good, and I like knowing that my husband is proud of the job that I do.
Well, I guess that is enough blabbing for today.
Saturday, September 1, 2007
An Amzazing Week
Aaron has called and imed me everyday this week. Most days we have spent around 5 hours talking. We miss each other so much that time just flies when we are chatting. We have sent pictures and videos of our days via email to each other. We are reading books and discussing them. Now we are drawing up and callaberating on floor plans for our dream home. So far, my floor plans are winning...lol. I think it just that I have the time and patience to draw them. Though I did take some of the beautiful details that he described to me and put them into my drawings. We are officially saving up for the house. It is a slow ambition, especially with us never knowing when we will get a chance to build our home, but it is a goal non-the-less.
We have also broaded our coversation topics. Everything from what we want to do when he comes home, where we would like to be stationed, where we want to be sealed, to just overall learning more about eachother. I never knew where all in the world he has traveled to...though I do now. I am so jealous. I've only been to 49 out of 50 states of the US (I need to hit Hawaii), Mexico and Canada. And I think that I almost have him conviced to go to Alaska. I miss it alot and am secretly praying to get stationed there...lol.
I have a couple of calendars counting down the days til 15 months are technically over for Aarons' unit. I know better than to think it gives any indication of when he and his men will be coming home, but it helps. As of Sunday, September 02, 2007...we are down to...167 days. Aaron never wants me to tell him how much longer. Apparently it makes it harder on him. But for me, it actually gives me something to contimplate. Like by Halloween, we will be down to almost 100. Then it is only 2 digits from there :D Luckily I have a photography class that Andrea and I are planning on signing up for this week. I also think that we are going to be doing a few scrapbooking activities as well as possibly horseback riding lessons. Here is a way I keep myself from going insane...stay busy..and put things in short terms...like: Halloween is just around the corner...a month later is Thanksgiving...a month later is Christmas...then New Years...then Valentines Day and that is about when Aaron should be coming home. So, five holidays and 5 months. Though they are holidays that will make me sad cause we have not had the chance to spend a single holiday together so far....but should keep me busy enough to pass time.
I know that I am just rambling...but I have been in this house all day and am probably going slightly nuts. Heck, I'm still in my pjs that I was wearing this morning..lol. Man, I need a life. Well, guess I should go grab a drink and try to pass out before midnight so I can be well rested for church in the morning.
We have also broaded our coversation topics. Everything from what we want to do when he comes home, where we would like to be stationed, where we want to be sealed, to just overall learning more about eachother. I never knew where all in the world he has traveled to...though I do now. I am so jealous. I've only been to 49 out of 50 states of the US (I need to hit Hawaii), Mexico and Canada. And I think that I almost have him conviced to go to Alaska. I miss it alot and am secretly praying to get stationed there...lol.
I have a couple of calendars counting down the days til 15 months are technically over for Aarons' unit. I know better than to think it gives any indication of when he and his men will be coming home, but it helps. As of Sunday, September 02, 2007...we are down to...167 days. Aaron never wants me to tell him how much longer. Apparently it makes it harder on him. But for me, it actually gives me something to contimplate. Like by Halloween, we will be down to almost 100. Then it is only 2 digits from there :D Luckily I have a photography class that Andrea and I are planning on signing up for this week. I also think that we are going to be doing a few scrapbooking activities as well as possibly horseback riding lessons. Here is a way I keep myself from going insane...stay busy..and put things in short terms...like: Halloween is just around the corner...a month later is Thanksgiving...a month later is Christmas...then New Years...then Valentines Day and that is about when Aaron should be coming home. So, five holidays and 5 months. Though they are holidays that will make me sad cause we have not had the chance to spend a single holiday together so far....but should keep me busy enough to pass time.
I know that I am just rambling...but I have been in this house all day and am probably going slightly nuts. Heck, I'm still in my pjs that I was wearing this morning..lol. Man, I need a life. Well, guess I should go grab a drink and try to pass out before midnight so I can be well rested for church in the morning.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Girls Night Out
Well, last night I finally got out of the house. You know, to do something unusual that is. First I had my cousins bridal shower. It was fun. The games were new for me and I really had a pretty good time. I had to leave a tad early to make it to the Ladies' Date I had been invited to attend. I met up with Andrea, Michelle and Missy at Party City to check out the Halloween costumes. I am just a bit picky I guess cause I couldn't choose. We all then carpooled to Rock-ola Cafe for dessert. We spent a good while just talking and nibbling before we headed over to Barnes And Noble to pass some time before our movie. I ended up buying 2 books while there. I am very much so looking forward to reading them. Then we went to the movies to watch Becoming Jane. Loved the movie, even though the ending sucked. But then again, it is based on real life and not everyones' life ends happily.
Overall, I had a nice evening. It was nice to get out of the house and have a chance to clear my head.
Overall, I had a nice evening. It was nice to get out of the house and have a chance to clear my head.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
I Don't Know What To Say
I really don't know what to say on these things. I have never been one for "blogs". When I asked my friend what the purpose of these things was, she told me it was pretty much to journal. A place for me to vent and just talk as if nobody was listening. So...here I go...
As most of you who would read this know, my husband Aaron is deployed. He has been for pretty much the entirety of our marriage. We were married for 13 days before he was sent away. And he has come home for R&R which was almost 3 weeks long. 9 1/2 months it has been. And he has only been back in Iraq for a week since R&R. And I am missing him so much it is breaking my heart. 6 more months seems like an eternity. Anyone who has met my husband knows...he is the most incredible man in the world. He is sweet, kind, loving, giving, fun, understanding, funny, respectful, noble, honorable and just overall perfect. He is the type of guy who would drop anything to help someone out. He is the type of guy who will just listen when something is bothering you. He is the type of man that I never thought that I would deserve (I still don't). He is like, a knight in shining armor, straight out of a dream. Heck, if I could dream up my perfect husband, he wouldn't even come close to how great Aaron is.
Which is exactly why it is so hard with him gone. I miss him so much. And the bad thing is (or at least one of them), I never feel like I tell him I love him enough. Sure I say it every chance I get. I even I.M. or email him just to say it. It just never feels like it is enough. And that is where my fears really get me. How about if something happens to one of us and he never knows how much I love him? He has just done so much for me. I never knew what true love was til he came into my life. He has shown me what it really means to be happy and loved. He never judged me because of my past. He never condemned me for my mistakes. He has only loved me and cherished me. Even before he realized he loved me, he loved me.
When he met me, I was so hurt and untrusting. The men in my past had made sure to scar me to the point that I never really wanted to give my heart to anyone. Then, I met Aaron. From the moment I first talked to him...I couldn't help but trust him. From the moment he first took my hand and led me on a dance floor...I couldn't help but love him. Just when I thought that all hope was lost. He came into my life and showed me what life was all about.
To this day, when he calls....when he first says "Hey Baby"...my heart still stops for a moment. And I am reminded once again how lucky I am to have him. He has made my life so full, I can't wait to see how much better it gets. I can't wait to show him and tell him how much I love him every single day for the rest of our lives.
Right now it is hard. Not knowing when or if I will ever see or hear from him again. I just have to have faith that God would not bring him into my life only to take him away. I look forward to the next time that I get to fall asleep to his snoring, bring him breakfast in bed, even going to the store with him knowing that I will have to beg him not to go to the electronics department...lol.
And reguardless of how long I will have to wait for him to come home, he is so worth the wait. I will keep my home fires burning and arms wide open to welcome him home.
As most of you who would read this know, my husband Aaron is deployed. He has been for pretty much the entirety of our marriage. We were married for 13 days before he was sent away. And he has come home for R&R which was almost 3 weeks long. 9 1/2 months it has been. And he has only been back in Iraq for a week since R&R. And I am missing him so much it is breaking my heart. 6 more months seems like an eternity. Anyone who has met my husband knows...he is the most incredible man in the world. He is sweet, kind, loving, giving, fun, understanding, funny, respectful, noble, honorable and just overall perfect. He is the type of guy who would drop anything to help someone out. He is the type of guy who will just listen when something is bothering you. He is the type of man that I never thought that I would deserve (I still don't). He is like, a knight in shining armor, straight out of a dream. Heck, if I could dream up my perfect husband, he wouldn't even come close to how great Aaron is.
Which is exactly why it is so hard with him gone. I miss him so much. And the bad thing is (or at least one of them), I never feel like I tell him I love him enough. Sure I say it every chance I get. I even I.M. or email him just to say it. It just never feels like it is enough. And that is where my fears really get me. How about if something happens to one of us and he never knows how much I love him? He has just done so much for me. I never knew what true love was til he came into my life. He has shown me what it really means to be happy and loved. He never judged me because of my past. He never condemned me for my mistakes. He has only loved me and cherished me. Even before he realized he loved me, he loved me.
When he met me, I was so hurt and untrusting. The men in my past had made sure to scar me to the point that I never really wanted to give my heart to anyone. Then, I met Aaron. From the moment I first talked to him...I couldn't help but trust him. From the moment he first took my hand and led me on a dance floor...I couldn't help but love him. Just when I thought that all hope was lost. He came into my life and showed me what life was all about.
To this day, when he calls....when he first says "Hey Baby"...my heart still stops for a moment. And I am reminded once again how lucky I am to have him. He has made my life so full, I can't wait to see how much better it gets. I can't wait to show him and tell him how much I love him every single day for the rest of our lives.
Right now it is hard. Not knowing when or if I will ever see or hear from him again. I just have to have faith that God would not bring him into my life only to take him away. I look forward to the next time that I get to fall asleep to his snoring, bring him breakfast in bed, even going to the store with him knowing that I will have to beg him not to go to the electronics department...lol.
And reguardless of how long I will have to wait for him to come home, he is so worth the wait. I will keep my home fires burning and arms wide open to welcome him home.
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